{"id":181,"date":"2012-02-23T19:02:55","date_gmt":"2012-02-23T23:02:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/?p=181"},"modified":"2012-02-23T19:02:55","modified_gmt":"2012-02-23T23:02:55","slug":"i-dont-wanna","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/?p=181","title":{"rendered":"I don&#8217;t wanna&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Sometimes, when I sit down to write, I want to do anything but. \u00a0I can&#8217;t focus; I can&#8217;t get my head into any of the story ideas that are swirling around.<\/p>\n<p>More often than not, it&#8217;s not that I don&#8217;t want to write or that I&#8217;ve hit a block, it&#8217;s that I&#8217;ve gone too long without writing.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m at this stage now.<\/p>\n<p>I have plenty of ideas-tons of ideas-in fact, I just figured out a small bit of my novel last night. \u00a0 But when I sit down with the pen and paper in front of me, I stare. \u00a0Doesn&#8217;t matter if it&#8217;s blank or if I&#8217;ve written something-anything-on it. \u00a0I stare.<\/p>\n<p>In part, this is because Rob and I went to Boskone over the weekend. I never get anything written at cons, no matter how much I might try. \u00a0Also a part of it is that I&#8217;ve been trying to outline and plot some short stories. \u00a0I usually don&#8217;t do that. \u00a0Hell, I almost never do that.<\/p>\n<p>My process tends to be more that I write through the first quarter, or less, of a story and then start in on the world building and planning. \u00a0Because I&#8217;ve only written shorts in college, I&#8217;ve been trying to plan and outline before writing.<\/p>\n<p>This sometimes ends up killing the story for me because I know how it&#8217;ll end. \u00a0I know what happens beginning to end, and I have no interest in finding out how I got there. \u00a0At least for a little while. \u00a0Then the ideas and seeds start to grow, and I&#8217;ve regained my interest in finding out what&#8217;s actually happened in the story.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe that&#8217;s what&#8217;s happened here. \u00a0But I&#8217;m supposed to be writing, because I didn&#8217;t exercise today. \u00a0That I blame entirely on the frikkin construction crew working on the road in front of the house until 5:30.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Now I only have about a half hour until dinner. \u00a0And wth does the timestamp on this read an hour later than it is?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sometimes, when I sit down to write, I want to do anything but. \u00a0I can&#8217;t focus; I can&#8217;t get my head into any of the story ideas that are swirling around. More often than not, it&#8217;s not that I don&#8217;t &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/?p=181\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false},"categories":[1,3],"tags":[54,55,99],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3TGyK-2V","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/181"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=181"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/181\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":182,"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/181\/revisions\/182"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=181"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=181"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.stellamortis.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=181"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}